Smiley's blog

Thursday, June 22, 2006

ummm... haven't blogged in a bit

I was reading random blogs today...and there was this one where this guy wrote about his son...and there relationship...and how much he loved him...and...after I read it I just sat and cried. It was so...beautiful. So...I decided I'd blog again. Maybe I'm not poetic...maybe I'm not a profound thinker...but I have an interesting life. I've been through a lot...I go through a lot...and maybe I can make someone feel the way that man made me feel. That's what life is all about, right? It's about taking what you learn and teaching others. It's about creating, loving, hurting...living...and then sharing it. Maybe someone else is going through my situation...maybe I can help them...So anyway, I'm blogging again. Yeah.

ummm... haven't blogged in a bit

I was reading random blogs today...and there was this one where this guy wrote about his son...and there relationship...and how much he loved him...and...after I read it I just sat and cried. It was so...beautiful. So...I decided I'd blog again. Maybe I'm not poetic...maybe I'm not a profound thinker...but I have an interesting life. I've been through a lot...I go through a lot...and maybe I can make someone feel the way that man made me feel. That's what life is all about, right? It's about taking what you learn and teaching others. It's about creating, loving, hurting...living...and then sharing it. Maybe someone else is going through my situation...maybe I can help them...So anyway, I'm blogging again. Yeah.

ummmm...haven't blogged in a while

I disappointed everyone in my life...within like five minutes. I'm sick, I'm tired, I'm depressed...I can't believe I could hurt so many people in such a short amount of time. And all the time, I was trying to help them...to protect them...but ended up hurting them worse...or maybe they would have gotten hurt anyways...I'm just a failure. I came in here and shut the door so I wouldn't have to see anyone...I got online so I wouldn't have to talk to anyone... I even signed off of MSN so I couldn't type to anyone...I'll just hurt them. I cried for a while and then I started reading random blogs...just to get my mind off stuff...and there was this guy who wrote ...just wrote about his son...and their relationship...and it was so beautiful....I cried forever...and now I'm blogging again. Because maybe somebody random out there will read this blog who feels like me...and I'll be able to help them. To everyone out there that feels like they hurt people and can't control it...to those people who are always sick and never seem to get better...to those people who just want to love and be loved...to those people who have the world's biggest "to do list" that never seems to end...You're not alone.